Not in a good place
I am not in a good place mentally for the past couple of weeks. Slightest of things set me down a spiral and I have this self-loathing and anger which I can't get rid of. I keep trying to tell myself that these are just passing signs and tomorrow will be better but I am tired really. Pick any signs of depression and I find myself checking off every one of those. I am too much of a coward to go as far as taking my own life but I have thought about it. I am not looking for pity or words of comfort or anything. I just wanted to leave this here to remind myself how wretched I am feeling right now. Writing about my inner turmoil usually helps reduce it. So here's hoping.